| so i haven't written in this thing for years. it's been...i think...3? years? what's been going on w/ me? i live in Rockville, Maryland now. I moved here Dec 30, 2006 to go to culinary school. AND YES, i actually finished school and i loved it! for the first time in my life i've actually completed something that i love to do. there's so much passion involved in cooking. if you can't handle the heat...get the fuck out of the kitchen. (i'm kinda just writing what i'm thinking right now so i don't care if u guys get offended whoever's reading) if ur even THINKING about becoming a chef...you have to LOVE it...not just food...u have to LOVE being crazy and fast and stressed out and getting slammed w/ orders up the asshole...bc as soon as you say "i can't do this anymore" you're fucked and then u break down and ur a bitch who spent 24k on school and BAM! right down the fucking drain.
so now i'm working the DoubleTree Hotel in Bethesda, Maryland. i am currently the kitchen supervisor of the restaurant. (we also have a kitchen for banquets too) i'm the youngest person working in that hotel but i'm second command in the kitchen (underneath my chef of course). I tell people what to do and they do it. I believe i can make excellent food (because people tell me) but i can't make everything. i'm still very young and my knowledge about food is still very raw. i need to travel and experience life in the culinary world. i wanna go to France, Italy, Japan, Spain any place where food is appreciated. NOT ENGLAND...fuck fish and chips.
ok so enough with my career...
i live in a house with 5 other people. Jane (my sister), Tang (jane's husband), Tink (tang's brother), Teo aka John (roomate, friend of the family) and of course TEAGAN (my niece)
i didn't know what to expect when i moved here. i'm very picky with who i live w/ bc i'm a lil anal w/ some things. wash ur dishes when u eat, don't leave shit on the kitchen table, don't leave food out, replace the toilet paper if u take the last of it, share things but don't eat all my shit. little things like that. But i've enjoyed living here for the past 2 years (well 2 years in Dec). the guys are great, we all like to shoot pool, joke around, we're all on the same level of respect and humor (does that make sense? i don't give a fuck it does to me)
Jane is my oldest sister. She is like my 2nd mother. she always took care of me and my other siblings when we were younger. so living w/ jane isn't a problem because well...i lived with her for like 15 years! lol
tang is really laid back...doesn't get mad. very very chill, he's always down for everything and he'll EAT anything! tang is like a big kid pretty much...actually he's not like...HE IS a big kid.
tink is very similar to tang. well bc they're brothers. tink is very laid back also. he's also the lady's man...when i first moved to MD he took me out to the clubs almost every weekend..literally. tink can get a girl no problem...it's crazy how he does it...i need to learn
teo too is very laid back...he's also a BIG KID. teo's prolly the most athletic fat guy i've ever met in my life. he has prolly over 50 pairs of shoes. he has everything for any sport he plays (10 tennis rackets, 3 golf sets, 3 softball bats) he's fucking nuts. but i love him man...only fat guy i'll ever love...
i love all of them...i love them like a family...well bc...they are family. i can be and do whatever i want around them and not have to worry...we can talk about ANYTHING and not have to worry. because like i said "we're all on the same level of respect and humor." speaking of love...the one person i love the most in this house is my niece Teagan. she's first of her generation in my family. she's the first niece in my family, first grandaughter. i love this girl to death. i treat her as if she was my own daughter (scary). she honestly brings alot of joy to my life well not just mine...but everybody else in this house. i tell her everyday that i love her because i want her to grow up knowing that her uncle will always love her no matter what. we have a routine when i leave for work. i say "bye bye teagan" and runs over to me gives me a kiss, a hug, and says "i love you bye bye!" man i love that girl.
i was supposed to move back to Nj after i graduated but i told myself...the only reason i would stay here is to watch teagan grow up and be part of her life...and that's what i'm doing right now.
i moved to NJ w/ a plan. i was dating a girl for about a year and half b4 i moved here. things were great...it was prolly one of the best relationships i've ever had in my life. we were so in love. i was supposed to finish school and then move back to NJ and then from there we were gonna live together...etc etc etc. i asked her tho if she could handle the long distance and she said yes. i knew this wasn't going to be pretty bc i know she's never done long distance b4 and i have...so i knew what to expect. so i moved down here and lets just say...4 months after i moved here...we broke up. she really couldn't handle the distance anymore and it was getting fed up. our schedules weren't matching, she broke a promise, i was stressing out. it wasn't good. i didn't mean to...but i broke up w/ her on her bday. 4/12 to be exact. i'm sorry M. so that's also another reason why i didn't move back home...bc i didn't need to. by this time i was already employed, i was in my second phase of school and i wasn't working. life was good.
so it's been almost 1.5 years since i've been single. i moved here to go to school and get my career started. NOT TO FIND GIRLS. if u know me from NJ then u know that i was also the lady's man. but that was then and this is now. i'm pretty sad now. i can hardly talk to girls, i got no confidence. but at the same time...i've yet to meet a girl that i would actually CONSIDER starting something with. i'm not looking for a girlfriend WHATSOEVER but if some happens to come along...then she does. but in the past 4 months i've had 5 different occasions where people tried to fix me up w/ someone. didn't work out...ALL 5 TIMES. maybe it's bc of the girls here. girls in NJ are better looking and are MY type. these girls are NOT.
but i do miss having a gf. someone who is gonna care for you, love you. someone who's gonna wait for your phone call because they miss you so much. someone who's gonna make you nervous everytime u touch them...AH i'm being emo...i'm gonna stop.
it was hard making friends when i moved here. people i went to culinary school with just weren't my type. i tried to hang w/ them...but couldn't do it. just wasn't the same as NJ. jane and tang's friends tried to include me in everything that they did...but it wasn't easy. they're all older than me. everybody's in their early 30's. people are getting married, having kids. and i'm...22, single. they all have nice jobs, lockheed martin, CIA shit like that...money makers i tell u. and their conversations surpass ANY kind of smart thought i would have. sometimes when we play poker i just sit there and listen in aw about what they're talking about. but friends weren't really a big issue for me cuz i had everybody at home to chill with. but still...it's nice to chill w/ people ur age and just kick back and relax. so i discovered this website called Bunchedup.tv. it's pretty much an online community where u come and stream live and chat about anything and everything. the greatest thing is...EVERYBODY IS COOL. now, i hang out w/ the people i do because of this online community. most of them i met on this website and found out they lived near by so now...i sort of have friends...haha
i've been writing in this shit for the past 2 hours and quite fankly...i'm fucking tired. there's so much more i wanna say in this blog...but this is...i guess a summary of my past 2 years of living. i hope you bitches enjoy it...if anybody is still subscribed to me...HAHA
i'll holla at you katz lata...peCe!
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| goodbye xanga...
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| i got back from cancun, mexico on saturday...that shit was CRAZY...pix will be posted...when? i dunno but they will be... |
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| I AM A CHEF...
WATCH ME COOK! |
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| i would like to...
but i can't have a girlfriend... |
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